Dream City

My mother ordered me a canon scanner today . It seemed to have the best reviews out of my price range, and is sooo super fast! Delicious high resolution and everything.

Now here, for the sake of taking up precious space, I give to you a quiz.

So you like boys, right?
Depends on the boy . Generally Menfolk are more my thing.

Ever kissed a Mike, Kevin, or Nick?
None of the above. That seems like a fairly random question, unless those are the top three male names or something.

Do you tend to fall for players?
Ah, I used to and now I like to consider myself smarter than that. Something to do with me lacking in self worth. Oh those days of being a little mouse who laughed at everything to hide the constant fear. Thank you, but I'll happily take someone with charm. Though, a taste of wild and dangerous is always welcomed.

Will you have a boyfriend in 2 months?
Doubtful, though I've learned that trying to expect things to go a certain way tends to fail a lot. Life likes to throw in a lot of twists and turns. In any case, for the first time in my life, I am content being independent and gloriously single! (Wishing there was a forest next to my house to prance through naked right now, lol. Ah the free wild woman. )

Have you ever had a best friend?
I have a friend, a very close friend, whom I feel more connected to than any other person on this planet. Sometimes that bond feels thin and out of reach. Sometimes we glow very brightly together. We share a lot of fire.

What does the song you're listening to remind you of?
Outside of my head, I listen to no song at the moment. Sleeping Sun by Coldplay is dancing in and out of my inner ear though.

Last person you talked on the phone with?
My mother. She accidentally locked herself out of the house last night! Daughter to the rescue

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
I don't get text messages. This tends to surprise a lot of people, but I find it so much nicer to connect with people and hear their voices. And the people that aren't afraid to do that with me are the ones that really matter.

What did you do today?
I played with photographs, bought a scanner, researched jumping stilts, chatted with ~Oakwitch about our crafting delights, sent out loving emails, and pressed on my cat's stomach to make him make silly little squeaks.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
I don't really feel like my day was bad. I could have done more things, I'm sure. I could have rolled around outside, ran, jumped, swam, showered (lol), drawn things... I don't know. Sometimes a girl just needs to cut back and take it eeeaasssyyy.

Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
No. I always get a heavy feeling when I hear that word, disappointed. Has someone let me down? Has someone failed my expectations? I only expect people to be real with me, to be who they are and do what they feel like they should. It doesn't seem like that is asking alot, though I may be naive, but no... I'm not disappointed.

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
It means I'm processing something, thinking deeply on it. This can be good, or bad.

Tell your feelings or hide?
Tell. Always tell. I get so tense when I feel like there is something I want to say, but don't say it.

Are you happy?
I have no idea how to even begin answering that. I don't see emotions as black and white so much anymore.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
I'm a living, breathing person. I get sleepy when I get sleepy. Sometimes morning feel amazing. Sometimes they feel like shit. Same with nights

Do you want to get married?
I don't know how to answer this one either, because my ideas on the matter are complex. Generally speaking, my answer is yes, eventually I would like to find someone I feel that open and comfortable with. Someone I love that ferociously and naturally. I wonder about it a lot, in passing and my feelings about it shift in minute ways rather frequently.

What were you doing at 1am this morning?
Dreaming of snakes and snails and puppy dog tails (if you know what that's the recipe for, then you know what I was dreaming about )

ONE FACT: About the person you fell hardest for?
I can't only say one thing, because my mind comes up with millions. So instead I'll say the first thing that comes to mind. The first time I saw you, I thought of star clouds exploding.

WHAT: Happened at 9:00 am today?
I woke up and wondered about the absurdities of my life.

ARE YOU: Wearing something you borrowed from someone?
I'm wearing a beatles sweatshirt that was giving to me, and nothing else. That was a lie because it sounded poetic; I only wish I was wearing nothing else. I'm going to make that happen.

HAVE YOU MADE: A mistake this past week?
Ohh probably. But I can't think of it or them or if or when.

DO YOU KNOW: Anyone with the same name as you?
Quite a few Ashleys.

WHEN WAS: The last time you really laughed?
This afternoon when saying "thats what she said" jokes with :devoakwithc:

Have you ever broken a flip flop?
What? I'm not sure I know what that is.

Email or voice mail?
Voice over text any day, but both make me happy.

Do you buy blank cds?
I collect them when they're given to me.

Have you ever been involved in a high speed car chase?
Nah, not really.

Do you own any powerpuff girl stuff?
Wow that was... ages ago.

Bad boys or Good boys?
I think my above answers should cover this question

Do you own a skateboard?
There's one in my garage but it's not mine.

Have you ever been a vegetarian?
On and off every once in a while. Sometimes it feels good to stay away from meat, sometimes I just need meaty proteins.

Do you like celery?
I do!

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
Quite a few things, actually. And I'm certain they'll come up again.

Will this weekend be a good one?
Yes. In one way or another, yes it will be. Even if I freak out, get angry, scream, yell, or some other sort of things that would indicate "not good" it will be good in some way. I hope I'm not just trying to convince myself here, lol.

Which shoe do you put on first?
I honestly have no clue.

Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
I do actually, and I'd really like to write it out some day.

How many GOOD books have you read, that you would read over and over?
Oh gods that's opening a can of worms. I've read far too many good books over the years. Off the top of my head, I'll say Wraeththu.

If you could pick someone to just "disappear" and nobody would care who?
Wow, no.

Have you ever written anything on a bathroom wall or door while your going washroom?
Nope.

Aren't Uggs and Crocs the ugliest shoes ever made?
Yes to both, but only those insanely generic Uggs. There's some cute boots with epic laces and lined fur.

Do you keep your friends close, but your enemies closer?
lol

Is there just some people that you don't get along with?
Yup.

Who was your last hug?
*Runelights

Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
Ahhh no. No way. I don't really think much about when I kiss people. When it feels right. But that isn't exclusive to intimate relationships.

Does anything on your body hurt?
My head. Some of these questions make me feel a little lonely.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
I'm going to say *Runelights because just about every conversation we have is deep and awesome.

What are you listening to right now?
The strange sounds of my house.

Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
I'm getting a little tired of these repeat questions [tired].

What's the CD in your player?
The album I made from my music class.

Anything annoying you right now?
Lack of sleep and trying to finish this quiz DX

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Dream City

Do so and I will make something for yuh It may or may not be something artistic, but yeah. It's VERY close, within the next 30 or so Page Views!

For those who don't know, 6 is a lucky number of mine. It shows up everywhere.
My address adds up to 6
I have 6 letters in all of my names
My name added up (a=1, b=2 etc) to the smallest digit is 6
I was born on the 16th
My Chinese zodiac sign is a Dragon: dragon= 6 letters.
It goes on and on and on and ooon. haha.
So PLEASE catch it!

In other news, StormCry's birthday is coming up on the 11th!
It is also *Runelights's birthday on the 14th.
Today, *Runelights and I went to Mt. Diablo to see the snow. It was SO beautiful!

If you know or are from California, then you are well aware that there are few places in our state where snow can be found. Usually the Sierra Nevada mountains. Mt. Diablo is a mountain in the bay area, about 20 minutes from my house. Usually once a year it gets snow for about 4 days. I can tell you, I have never seen this much snow on a mountain from my window!! In fact, friends of mine actually had snow on their roof tops! It's been at least 10 years since the bay area got snow at this elevation. I'm so excited. I'm sure all you northerners who get snow frequently are laughing at me right now . I haven't been so close to snow in two years. Ahhh.

Ari and I didn't actually get to tromp around in the snow, because the roads were blocked off. But we got some really epic shots. It's crazy... you look to the right and you see our city of Walnut creek, cold but sunny and such. You look to the left you see open field and country side. You look farther to the left and you see OMG MOUNTAN WITH SNOW AND HUGE WTF CLOUDS. I'll upload pics to ~FeatherMyth soon I hope, but in the mean time check out this shot that Ari took of the clouds and country side!

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Dream City

Let me take you through a story of rapid mood swings, biscuit disasters, and way too much food for four people.

I don't even really know why Thanksgiving exists, or how it evolved the way it did. Sure, it's good to keep what your thankful for in the forefront of your mind, but really, the whole history of the holiday baffles me.

The day began with my mother insisting that I deal with the giblets (the heart, kidney, etc of the turkey). "You have to slice off the fat and..." at that point the kidney nearly slipped through her fingers and I had to cut her off. "Mom. I'm going to be sick." She gave me such a 'don't-be-such-a-wuss' look. Usually I pride myself on how able I am to stomach gross things. Animals are a different story. I swing between being vegetarian and eating meat on occasion. And hoooly shit. Seeing that kidney nearly fly at me was freaky.

So instead of dealing with the giblets, I got turkey massage duty. This involved throwing canola oil over the bird and giving the skin a good rub down. A massage. I was massaging a dead bird.
waht.
the.
fuck.
lol.
It was all cold and bumpy from where the feathers used to be, and the skin kept wrinkling up. Ahhh .

Hours later when the bird was about 5 minutes from being pulled out of the oven, chaos broke loose. Out of nowhere, my father became angry because no one told him how to make the mashed potatoes. The whole house was in a coughing fit because my mom put too much pepper in the green beans. Meanwhile my brother and mother were hashing it out because he wanted to sit on the couch watching football. Ohhh family.
So while all this mess is going down, I'm desperately trying to dodge people in our kitchen so that I can get the biscuits all figured out. I'm sure you all can imagine how silly that must have looked.
Don't ask me how this happened, I really have no idea.
The pan hit the upper part of my arm, resulting in this:



It stung for a while, but it's kind of a cool scar

After all that mess it ended up being a pretty awesome feast. I didn't over eat, for once.
Allthough, this morning when I woke up to grab some breakfast, my mom informed me that my cat was puking. So I got to spend the morning cleaning up cat spew all over our glass door. Cat food, smelly stuff, and grass. Mmm delicious. Thanks Savvy. You're the best.

And now the best part. Crazed holiday shopping. Good luck comrades!

Anyway, do you have any crazy holiday stories? Feel free to share :]

Also check out Ari's (*Runelights) latest image! It's pretty epic












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Dream City

This journal includes: New Videos, Request for advice, Storms, a Wishlist, and LOVE.

For those that don't watch me on YouTube, I've finally gotten past YouTube security with their NO MUSIC FOR YOU filter. So there are speed paints of these deviations available!:
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I need advice. Real, honest advice. After watching those vids, espeically the one of Gisement, I feel like my artwork has hit a wall. My technique has changed, my patience has become thin, and lately I am completely displeased with my anatomy. I have very general and basic knowledge of how animal forms work, the rest is filled in my my head. Coloring; I know how to do it. But same problem. Mostly it's my head filling in the gaps, which means for very wrinkly necks and arteries that don't make sense... muscles that don't exist etc. That image, the one of Gisement... I feel like that one was really awesome. Lately there hasn't been much that I've been satisfied with. Back then I thought I was lazy, but now I feel like I'm getting worse! D: Bah!
My question is this:
What is something you do when you feel displeased with your art?

I'm trying some techniques, but the frustration still is there. I'm considering completely revamping my style and forcing myself to concentrate on what I'm doing. It's so easy to zone out when you have a formula from beginning to end. 1: noble creature. 2: pick a fantasy landscape. 3: pick glowy bright sort of colors. 4: color the image. 5: slap in some clouds and stars. 6: submit to deviant art.
Might do some more cartoons too. Who knows. I just feel a need to change it up. Maybe work on my own characters some more. Ahh.

Also, I won't be accepting equine commissions for a while. I really need to break out of my comfort zone here.

That being said, how about a change of tune?
WE FINALLY GOT A STORM!
The wind was howling and I ran out in the rain with my cat. Savvy was a little scared, but after a while he started batting at the rain drops as they fell, and tried to pounce on them . I absolutely love storms. I like to think, sometimes, that StormCry ([link]) is paying me a visit.

And now the wishlist. Sorry if you had to scroll a lot I just am sometimes uncomfortable posting these because I feel like a snob. No pressure either! This is for those that KNOW they want to get me something, but have no idea what to get!

- Fan Art is ALWAYS loved and appreciated, in all shapes and forms! Icons, Graphics, My Characters etc
- Cards and letters make me feel special .
- Prints are awesome :3
- Advice, happy comments, love... that ALWAYS makes me a happy little bug.
- Art supplies are pretty sweet!
- I love to read, so books are welcomed!

Really, if I got anything from someone online I would be thrilled. I don't expect it, but even if it's what you consider ridiculous, I'd probably appreciate it :]

And lastly, though this should probably be first, LOVE.
Do you guys know I love you? Well I do. Because we've met before, and had some sick connections, and hit it off pretty well.

lol no, but really. I just wanted to shout out my appreciation for everyone. The last journal I wrote was different from my usual wacky over the top self, and I got a lot of receptive responses which was REALLY awesome. You guys are the best. Really.

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Dream City

Self healing. Oh what a powerful experience you are.
But I'm not here to bore you all with details Instead, I'll speak of shoes and ships and sealing wax, of cabbages and kings.
Or, how completely in love with traditional art I am. Maybe because it actually works for me. Hah. Seriously now, time to get a scanner and upload my recent work. Photographs just don't cut it, no matter how much editing in Photoshop it takes . I think the healing has helped the art block.

Shit happens. I hate that saying. But it does.
And it's hard to remember to breathe.
But I do breathe.
And I listen.
and I keep running with life

Kinda works.

In any case, I just didn't want this to be a quiz only journal. But *Winzer tagged me soooo. Here we go

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"The woman pressed her palms into my fifth chakra and said 'you need to remember to let go right here'" -- My journal.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What are you touching?
Depends on the direction. Straight ahead is my monitor, to the left is my shelf, on the floor is a camera, a shoe, and a half finished painting of something I am currently unfamiliar with.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
House

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
11:42 PM.

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11:16PM WAY off. haha.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Cars buzzing down the freeway, late night chirpings of insects, my fingertips on the keys.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
A few hours ago, on the way to the coffee shop. I was thinking about life, about the odd things that continuously happen. The strange coincidences that follow me. The people that turn up. The people that disappear. What I want. What I need. How much I love being scared by people. How much I love when unexpected things turn my world upside down. When the norm gets shaken and my shell cracks open.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My recent deviation, but in it's real form. The paper on which the drawing exists in it's non yellow photographed form.

9. What are you wearing?
Blue lace bra, gray tank top, and beige pants with lots of pockets. I feel like such a girl, eating chocolate sorbet and taking quizes at night.

11. When did you last laugh?
Talking to ~tabbykit on AIM, when she refrenced an RP we had YEARS and years ago, one in which her character, Siona, stabbed himself in the foot. Hehe.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A lot of artwork that *whirl-wind has mailed to me or given me when she came to visit. There's also a wind chime, glow in the dark stars, bells, necklaces, prints, bracelets, and my own paintings

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Few things weird me out. Though I did see a beautiful young woman picking at her butt. That made me laugh though. I also saw an elderly Chinese couple picking out lube at Target. That made me laugh as well, but not at them. I was more happy for them. They looked so excited!

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Same old. I'd like some deeply psychological questions that challenge me and make me really consider who I am. This kind of stuff I can just spew out.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Hm, film. I'm not sure I remember. I think I left the movie theater liking it. I know I had ice cream... Um. I was with my dad. Let me check fandango. I think it was Zombieland?

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Land, a little cottage, 6 swans, an adult sized playground, make sure my friends and family are taken care of, then probably donate what I can to a legit charity.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I am absolutely and completely fascinated by things that society shuns. Dark things. Twisted things. Not necessarily things I would do, but things that other people do and the mental processes that surround them. The human mind captivates me to no end. Ever since I became aware that we only use a small portion of our minds, my curiousity has been ever present. And this is not limited to the dark things. Anything. Anything that isn't today's standard of Normal, I find myself loving.

I also adore trees, and often name them, tell them stories, and think about what would happen if they lifted their roots and started to dance.

Now what do you think of me?

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Abolish money, revamp america's school system (possibly others' though I don't have much knowledge about how other school systems work), probably make the world more like "Ecotopia" (read it, great book). Encourage the arts and music. Those sorts of things.

19. Do you like to dance?
Yes. I need to do it more.
A wise little thing explained a world where wars didn't exist because they danced their anger when it arose.

20. George Bush:
Oh politics.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Many things. Ruby, Ira, Lotus, Feather, Aruna, amongst others.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Orion and many other names that shall be secret as well

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Absolutely. I'm not tied to one place or another.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"This isn't what you think it is. Do you see me? Do you see you? Are you listening? Turn around. It doesn't work like this."
Because that's not what I believe in. Though I'm open to any possibility.

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